Sunday, December 12, 2010

Rehab ~ Stream of Conciousness Sunday


Many thanks again to my friend Fadra who is hosting Stream of Consciousness Sundays.  The idea is to set a timer for 5 minutes and type.  I was able to write much more last time, but I wasn't perched on a hospital bed listening to my Dad's breathing that time.  This is a great way to get out anything that you're thinking about, or just jump start your writing(it was both for me this week!)

and the story takes another turn.  the week after thanksgiving, after a diagnosis of some Parkinsonisms, my dad fell in the middle of the night.  He broke his right femur and his left hip.  He had to lay in a hospital bed from Wednesday to Friday with two broken bones.  He had two surgeries back to back to fix the right leg and repair replace the left hip.  it's terrible.  he is so weak and he is getting so confused and now they arent' even sure if he has parkinsons or some other terrible HEREDITARY condition.  we are at a rehab hospital facing the possibility of being kicked out because he has developed a urinary tract infection and can't do therapy.  hopefully he will tomorrow.

it breaks my heart because he just wants to go home.  I leave at night and go home to my family and he has to stay there. its the best place for him, but hes so confused.  yesterday morning when he was very sick from the infection he thought i was his mom.  that sort of pushed me over the edge.  my mom is exhausted, i am exhausted.  i am so grateful to my husband for taking care of so much at home so I can be here.
and its Christmas.  I love Christmas but the thought of it makes me cry.  I haven't done any shopping and I have two children that need me to be able to find my Christmas spirit. 

There you have it, 5 unedited gloomy minutes. Moving on.   


Unknown said...

Wow. Sorry to hear about your dad. It is rough to deal with that sort of thing during Christmas. Hope that it takes a turn for the better and that you get some rest.

Wendy said...

Tough times. Praying.

Tiffany Sellers said...

Tough stuff to be dealing with around Christmas. I hope you can enjoy some peace and rest this holiday season.

all.things.fadra said...

Amy - I am so sorry to hear of everything that is going on. I know you will find the ray of sunshine in this. Sometimes I think it's easier to deal with your own suffering than to watch someone you love suffer. It's the feeling of helplessness. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Molly Gold said...

Oh Amy ~ this is SUCH a hard time to be caring for a sick parent who is not the parent you know them to be ~ prayers for your strength and stamina, for wise and compassionate doctors who heal him swiftly and help you learn what you need to do focus on most ~ you can do this ~

Real Life Sarah said...

Amy, I can;t even imagine what you are going through right now. But I am committing to pray for you, your dad, and your family at home.